The silence is screaming.

Somewhere you are singing to me
The music is soothing
I loved hearing you sing
And now there is no music ,
No harp , no lute
When the music sounds are gone ,
In it's stead comes a terrible noise
Wherever i walk , wherever i go
There is no music
I cannot hear you singing to me
Tame this noise , that pierces so
But you are nowhere ,
You say nothing . . .
Softy , in the night i hear you singing to me
But i wake , and it was a dream
All those around me , say this say that
And this and that only noise to my ears
O these raging storms , raging seas
And i find relief in your voice .
It is so loud here without you .
Come back to me , and sing to me again.
For i cannot endure this silence forever.

Ridicule tries to befriend me.

It's on my mind .
I want it to go .
Yet i want it to stay grounded with me .
Fight after fight after fight .
I don't know anymore.
I break every time , im alone
I burn every time
Im smoldering in cold heat
If the heat doesn't get me , i fear the cold will
So i am neither burning or freezing to death
I try to think
I scold ,
I chant , i chant and chant some more
Sometimes i think i am being ridiculous
Having so much grief about a person
Who doesn't give two figs
Alive or dead , it wouldn't matter
Ridiculous!

why want something if it's not meant to be yours?

A quote by Bernard Shaw was that
'love is a gross exaggeration of one person from others.'
I think that it is pain ,
But i was mistook , pain is what you feel when the love is taken away
Love is the feeling , the moment , the words , the intention
The feeling was incredible , sweet and different
The moment was awkward to be sure , but unforgettable
The words were numerous , some hurt , some flattered , some just words
And after my experiment was over i was left feeling hollow
Strangely hollow , i discovered i was capable of feelings
It was no longer something i wondered about , i was there
It was a nightmare , it was painful , it was torture
And i was there all alone ,like i have been all my life
Being on my own doesn't scare me , no , not even a little
I'm scared of the lie , the cheating , the secrets , the hiding
And i saw you , you shook up my very structure
My entire belief system was out the window
And you completely composed , it's insulting
And i have no control of what i feel
Sometimes i struggle to contain my outbursts
But i can't , i find that my heart is unruly and won't listen
So i ask why want something if it's not meant to be mine?

Don't wear your freedom down.

We are all instruments
We are all dancers
Some are singers , some are not
Some are fighters and some are not
Some are tall , some are short
Some are black , some are white
But what you are not is mine
Do as you will , i will give you whatever you need
I will smile politely and not raise my tone
I won't even cry .
So don't wear your freedom down
And i will . . .