I am saddened

I am saddened ,
Saddened , indeed
That birds in the trees will love better than a man
That a bird will sing for it's lady bird
And a man will not ,
That a bird will flap it's wings
And a man will not
Oh , no
I will tell you what he will do-
He will turn you against each other
He will lie to you
He will use you
He will break you down

Why?
Why? Must you cheat?
Why will you make her a fool?
Why do you not think of her?
Why will you not think of them?
Why will you not see that you insult her?
That everything she gives you is not enough
Why must you cheat?

I am saddened ,
Saddened in deed ,
At what men and women have become
Women will be subject to such deception
And men will be free to roam about
I wish I was a bird
That I could fly away , whenever I wanted
That I would find joy each morning and tweet
That I would be safe away from man
Man and his fire -stick that
Kills every creature it sees

Love is . . .

Love is madness . . .
Love is obsession
Love is someone you can't live without
Love is passion . . .
Love is foolishness
Love is someone who makes you laugh
Love is sacrifice . . .
Love is discipline
Love is not hurting the object of your affection
Love is excitement . . .
Love is getting swept away
Love is that whisper of thrill
Love is crazy. . .
Love is a drug
Love is someone you are addicted to
Love is trust . . .
Love is truth
Love is faithfulness to your partner
Love is a secret . . .
Love is a trick
Love is a moment you're frozen in
Love is responsibility . . .
Love is loyalty
Love is someone you can be yourself with
Love is a journey
Love?
It's a word that not even a thousand words could describe

Two hearts , one soul.

In my face , you will find it's simplicity
A more beautiful face , you will find
A lovelier form , you will find
What i have above all the other faces of this world
Is my complete and utter devotion to you
In my eyes , you will find a dreamer
A girl so in love , she floats on air
She levitates
She sings happy tunes
Ah , do not look away , dear love
I love thee in such state
Look at how our eyes meet , our faces rest
Look how we make a perfect lines when our lips meet
Look how our words weave together like poetry
How can you say there's no heaven waiting for you?
How can you say that life's not worth living?
That dreams do not come true
When your arms are wrapped around me , do you feel it too?
The connection between our souls
When you smile , i smile
When you cry , i cry
You are not my soul mate
It is an overused phrase , a cliche
You and me , it is a meeting of souls
For the merger of just one.
I love you.

I never loved him , what a tragedy

After it all , the goodbyes
And you're thinking ,
Where did it go wrong?
But then you know , deep inside
Even after you hurt inside
You know deep down
You never loved this person
You never really gave it your all
You held back ,
You kept a part of yourself back
You were selfish
You held back ...
And it's things like that
They say , they say
You never really loved him anyway
Because it's the little things
That say what you feel . . .

You stole my heart.

You stole my heart , now i want it back
I was what i was , now I'm not
After you- there's no going back
Going back to the good times , the gullible times
I know too much now , about how this game works
I wish i didn't , because i can't pretend anymore
I can't pretend that you are not mine , that you have your place
I missed my stop at the bus yesterday ,
I was looking for you , and i got in alone
I'm changed , im breaking and im aching
I die every night , every time , every waking moment
I'm capable of feelings too , I'm not a lifeless creature
I'm falling down and you're not around to pick me up
If i looked into your eyes -I'd die
And you wouldn't have a thought for me - i know
I was just another number , you were my awful first
Being this poetic is pathetic , you're laughing at me
I can't help it , it's not like a have a switch for this
You don't have my heart at all , it's just me
Me & self- deception , thinking that you loved me
Or i you-

jealousy

Here i am on a Friday night watching films
I sit alone , it's getting cold
I came across a letter you gave me
When i was inclined to denial
I know your typical Friday nights
The prowl : the hunter and the hunted
The thrill , the lights the night's promise
There will be no cold at your house
Why would i care anyway?
Because i don't
I'm also having a thrilling Friday night.

My eyes.

There's no room for me to cry,
Not even for trying
My heart is buried deep , you see
Though my love for you commit-ed many sin
I can't disguise
If you look in my eyes
What you will find are tears
I'm sure not many ears would erase
I tell myself that i will not cry
So if you look in my eyes
You will find tears in my eyes.

You linger on.

I won't keep you here
If you want to leave - then leave
You are determined to go
I won't stand in your way
I know there's no hope
But-
You linger on
You'll always be my baby.

Shall I compare thee to a sow's ear?

Shall I compare thee to a pig's ear?
Thou art more slimy and disgusting
Rough winds do shake the bastards at bay,
And your dipstick hath all too short a date.
Sometime too crazy your eyes seem - googly ,
And often your gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair girl you do,
By chance or nature's changing course you get a veneral disease;
But you get no diseases
Nor lose possession of that cheating trait thou ow'st;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,at least not yet
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st to cheat
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

By and By.

I thought I could fly
To the big blue sky
Now I'm struggling to get by
So why did i try?
Now I only cry
Fry my heart fry
By and by.

100 posts yay!

This is post 101 and i hope will someday be 201!
-Noni Kanyora.

The past is the past , behind me.

So much has happened
The events that have , are and will take place in my life
Have made me who i am today
And though very painful ,
They are gone , they are behind me
No more will the past haunt me
Carrying the burden of my parents is a weight
Too heavy
So i will not , not anymore.
Carrying the weight of ridiculous boys
Boys they are-
I will let go
Already done
And i will find a bright future
If i let go of the past
It isn't unwritten , but my future is

Love is not love . . .

which alters when it alteration finds..
or bends with the remover to remove
Oh no, it is the ever-fixed mark
that stands on tempest and is never shaken.
sonnet 116.

If to err is human . .

If to err is human , then to love you is humane
And you with me , is inhumane
To excuse your mistreatment of me
The mistreatment of all the others
Is a human error!
I became the number that amplifies your cheating game
More to the solidarity of man-cheaters
A human error
So if it means every mistake i make is human
Then I'm gonna beat the humanity off me!
No more you - Jerk!

Love is free

You cannot buy it
You cannot put it in a box
You cannot wrap it up
You cannot sell it in a store
You cannot find it in the mall
You cannot get if if you are too tall
Or short , or big or small
It's free!
You earn it , not buy it
You put it up in your heart , not a box
You wrap it up with trust , patience , not ribbons
You cannot sell it for anything , even money
You find it in the most unlikely of places
It doesn't discriminate
If you're tall , short , big or small
It's free!

Bye .

Flow down the river of my soul
The network of my veins
So chilled in this August morning
Where i have lacked many a good night's sleep
All to you ,
No more of my steps shall you hear
No more of my voice you shall hear
No more of my laugh you shall endure
For ever and ever.

Like death is permanent , so is this separation
And i wish you well
I remember that all things must die
I hope only i find with me the gift of love
True love as rare as a ghost that few have seen
And none of your cheating or unfaithfulness banter

This falls , goodbye unknown
As you brazenly told me not to mention your name
In writing , so i will keep my word
But just know this death kills one with such cold
I want to live again.
Goodbye , farewell forever
Goodbye.

It hurts too damn much

I shall not cry
I will be level-headed
I will move on
I will be strong
Except im torn apart
Except every time his name is mentioned
Tears me up ,
Their words like knives cut deep within me
And they don't know what they are doing to me
And i pretend , it's so untrue
It hurt's to damn much
An arrow to the heart , an arrow to the heel
They say this , they say that
They say you do this and do that
I never even asked them
But they say you are doing fine
With all your 'lady-friends'
And i am never going to be one of the many again
I'm hurting so much
I'm burning into the fire
I'm tearing up in the seams
My heart is spent
But i never want to be one of your many again
Is so silly , you see
That i can be undone by such a pompous man
Heck , im human
But i want to be free of you completely ,
Because even a little is too much
I am spent , goodbye
You'll see no more of me.

I inhaled you.

I breathed you and now
There's no forgetting you
Forgetting the fragrance of your breathing
Your smell , your taste
Just one tiny memory
Can lit up a violent parade
This love is violence
Passion that cannot be diminished
By any one thing

It is the fire that still burns
The tree that still grows
The constant sun , evening star
We receive what we give
And I gave into you
Subtle experiences that become memories
That become the past
But this I feel , for you
Of awful attachment which greatness stands
The more I sought the more I lost
The more I hungered and thirsted
For your lips your eyes
With every impulse in my body
I couldn't breathe
With seeking and seeking the object
Of my sanctuary
With seeking I lost everything I had.
This dying , caused by desire
Seeking with words , hands everything
Higher and higher and higher and then much higher I went
Thoughts as these , by which pleasure is enhanced
Inhaling you , breathing you
Your fragrance

Sick , wearied out and jealous
You struck me open
Prophetic strain
By whatever means I love you
Or however we loved , we may teach them how
How the minds of two people become
The greatest elements of the empire of God.
Beauty exalted and bloods mingled.
But to be with you
Your hand on my face
Your delicious mouth
Conducted to this end
Your air your smell
Was very heaven .

we are perfectly , imperfect

You're always in eye-line
And on my mind
I can't help it as i lie awake in my bed
Wondering if this love is alive or dead
So many have tried to win over my heart
And i trying to deny my heart , lead on
But my heart you see , can't help but love you
That even when i am older
Ill be your crying shoulder
Our eyes were so perfectly aligned
And when our souls meet and merged
You had to be there
And your eyes not revealing their depth
When you whispered into my ear , you whispered to my heart

My oh My

My oh My
Look at the boy to shy
He ain't gonna try
To get the girl
My oh My
What a shame too bad
He gonna miss the girl

When to let go

You and i are not a smart match
We are so different
I love a low-key life ,
I have 3 best friends one of them is my nephew
You have millions of friends ,
They think you're the top dog or something
I think it's pathetic and can't be bothered
I feel a fool for stepping out of my shell
Aside from humiliating myself i wasted my time
And yours
But i liked you , more than i'm afraid to admit
And that's just it , i can't admit it
Because the faster i move on the better
Of course your version of moving on includes sex lots of girls
Mine is listening to really sad songs and lying in bed and reading Jane Austen
At least we know who's more awesome of the two
And it hurts , it does
It hurts for me knowing i was so stupid
That i walked in foolishly
And i say to myself ' Silly girl !'
And i can't say it enough
But now im wasted broken from head to toe
And moving on will be painful and gradual
But it starts now this gradual process
I just need a sign to know when to let you go

I miss you so so much mummie ;(

I never knew how much i needed my mother
She always had the funniest jokes
And the strangest answers to my questions
If i didn't brush my teeth she'd say
'Who's called Halitosis?'
And I'd say ,'ME!' to vex her
Or when she'd find dish about me from someone
I'd ask ,'Who told you?'
And she'd answer sweetly , 'A little bird told me!'
Oh , i love you for bearing up with me when i was 17 , 10 , 9 , 11 and 18
And when you would say that i was enough
And that you were proud of me
There are many rotten things i have done and you remained-
My mother
Now you send me e mails in pink
It makes me wanna cry
And you sign off with a rose like your name
Oh, my mummie
I'd remember how
Sometimes you'd make me breakfast in bed when i was down
Or make me lemon tea when i was sad
Or cuddle me when i was needy
Now you're far away working
And i miss you so much
I miss our fights
I miss your condescending tone
I miss telling you stuff
This year i turned 21 and i said i was an adult
But living without my mum is no rock n roll
Turns out all alone ...
I'm not that strong without my mummies arms

Distance?

I see only latitudes and longitudes
I see kilometers , i see several miles
But i do not see you
You are at a distance
And if i shed a thousand tears
You will still be gone
So I'd rather not
If i close my eyes and pray you'll come back
I open them and realize that you have left.
Is this the end?
Is there no compass , no map to aid me
Is there no guide in lost hopeless love
One to guide in the perilous storm that is love?
Is there no one who will say : 'press on.'
Now all i have is the hope
Of shortly seeing you again.

Parting is such sweet sorrow.

Parting is such sweet sorrow
That i shall say goodnight till it be morrow
I never wished to harm you
Only to love you
And if tomorrow we're not together
Please i ask you to remember
That even if we are apart
I think of you often
And i get this feeling in my gut
But if it means many days
Without your face
I will search many ways
To remove your trace
As you have my place
I know you must go
I just wish you didn't
Here i am now ,
What days are these?
Without any breeze
Without any air
While you are in happy pair
But i already know
That you must go.
Say what you may
And i might as well pay:
my rotten luck and over-spent goodbyes

Parting.

You were the target i was aiming at
You were the one i wanted
But some things are hard ignore
The highs made me want to fly
The lows made me want to die
Every parting was the form of death
Every meeting was aliken to heaven
But some poems don't rhyme
Some stories end sadly
And our love is hurting so badly
But remember i loved you so madly.

When i'm with him i am thinking of you

You say move on , where do i go?

What you are doing?

There's a tons of fish in the water. . .

He kissed my lips i taste your mouth

He pulled me in , i was disgusted with myself

Oh , i wish i was looking into your eyes . . .
I think you should know

I am thinking of you

(thinking of you by Katy Perry)

I die a little each day .

When you are near me
When you are here
I see
And my eyes do not see thee
For all i can see or feel
Are the feelings i have for thee
And when you are gone
Time passes so slow
There is no hour ungodly
But you did the unthinkable
The unforgivable
And so did i-
For loving you in such a state
I was blinded ,
I found the paradox
When you are gone i see , but i don't again
When you are near i see
And as they speak of your present state
Your present happiness and mirth
I die a little each day.

Your arm.

Set me as a seal upon your arm
Upon your heart
And when my heart , my love warms you
As my wit , my personality charms you
Then nothing will harm you , love.

Come , let us kiss and part.

To die and part is a lesser evil
Than to live and part
Now that is torment
Because i find no peace
Because your words of treason
Lay me to the gallows
When you are silent-
You are holding the rope that i must hang myself
Then no more -
Come let us kiss and part
For you never intended to stay anyways
And cut deep you have , my heart
It is in halves , in halves
And when we meet again
How shall i disguise my true feeling
Tell me i am not to act it out
Indifference
The agony of parting is relieved at meeting
But meeting you is twice the agony and torment
The reason it hurts so much is because
Our souls are connected.

This hurting , this hurting .

This hurting , this hurting
Just won't do

I hurt,hurt and hurt some more
Now I am sore and sound a bore

This hurting ,this hurting
How can it be so?

It comes big
It comes small
It comes round
It comes tall
Almost as if it were a big small round tall ball!

This hurting , this hurting
Is something Ive never felt before

This hurting , this hurting
What a bore!
But what if it holds something more

This hurting , this hurting

Don't waste your time on me , you're already a voice inside my head.

. . . I MISS YOU . . .

If you love something , set it free

I think i love in excess
For my love is always thrown back to me
They say: Tis too much , too nice , too sweet
They leave shortly afterward-
And he that say those words twice - lies
Yet nothing is for certain
How can i say - that love for you decays
How can it , if my heart is still beating
Drumming your name , you voice , your touch
How can i say the love burned a day?
I think men are very inconsiderate
With a flash they dismiss you
How can a log burn a second?
And if i am too burn , how shall you burn the ash in my soul
Yes , i know you only think of yourself
And your pleasure is your top priority
Nevermind me
Would you laugh at me if i said : that i remain
I beg your pardon
ThAt you remain in my heart
And you are an irreversible event
And i on a blackboard erased last week
I am out of style , out of your league too plain?
I will let you go
I will be accepting and distant as per your request
And if we shall ever meet again
No signal , no indication on my brow
That former love retained
We will be like strangers
Two people from different planes ,
Why indeed , i have set you free
And if by the tiniest chance you are mine
And mine only
You will come back
or you will not . .

I am spent and goodbye.

If you are the one i hold dear
Then it is time you became
The one i held dear
You were the one
Until reality caught up with me
I found no fault in you
I was new , i was true now so so blue
All these places are empty
And i fear my broken heart shows
But i will unite the pieces
For , you are so terribly wrong for me
Terribly wrong for love
A hundred girls you do surround
And i nothing , no dozen gents to show
Save you-
And that is a sad state of affairs indeed
You love another and another and yet another!
You brush me aside when they are close
More pity unto me , alas!
I fear my heart will not recover
But my mind says - steady on!
I have nothing to offer you
Maybe youthful spirit and heart
But you're not looking for heart , are you?
What did i become when i met you?
A Cliche , a foolish girl
You never think of me , i see you smiling about
When i am dying little by little
Enough now , one blow was quite enough
Thank you .
I am spent .... goodbye
It is time i left this unite.

Sweet , i could kill you with much cherishing.

I love you
And that is a scary thought indeed
For i could kill you with much cherishing
I think about you often as i can
I have become so distracted- i am no good
I think you are heaven
I think that you are sun
I exaggerate whenever i speak of you
Isn't that love?
And i worry that maybe i love you too much
I cannot find fault in you
To me you are perfect-
Oh , to have a love such as mine!

Set fire to the third bar( my all time favourite love-sad song)

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My fingers in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms
(By Snow Patrol and Martha Wainwright)

Kiss the girl.(from the little mermaid)

There you see her
Sitting there across the way
She dont got a lot to say
But theres something about her
And you dont know why
But youre dying to try
You wanna kiss the girl

Yes, you want her
Look at her, you know you do
Its possible she wants you, too
There is one way to ask her
It dont take a word
Not a single word
Go on and kiss the girl

Look at the boy too shy
He aint gonna kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Aint that sad
Aint it shame, too bad
You gonna miss the girl

Nows your moment
Floating in a blue lagoon
Boy, you better do it soon
No time will be better
She dont say a word
And she wont say a word
Until you kiss the girl

Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Dont be scared
You got the mood prepared
Go on and kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Dont stop now
Dont try to hide it how
You wanna kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Float along
Listen to the song
The song say kiss the girl
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
Music play
Do what the music say
You wanna kiss the girl

Youve got to kiss the girl
Why dont you kiss the girl
You gotta kiss the girl
Go on and kiss the girl
(from the little mermaid)

Glass.

Fool you made the girl fall in love
you said those beautiful things
she thought you spoke things you mean

Caress her skin like it's glass
she hears your voice making plans
and sees your face in her hands

You don't wanna see somebody beg
as you feel her heart surrender
you begin to fall
How do you say that something's through
when it never even started
at least not for you

You breathe her air and you leave
you keep your mind on yourself
and lie the glass on the shelf
After the heavenly speech
your body throws holy heat
the angels sing when our eyes meet

It wasn't a lie but it wasn't true
I just wanted to make you feel good
just wanted you near
I wasn't prepared I wasn't thinking of you
that you could actually love me
it never should have started

She's dreaming back on the past
every opinion agreed
doesn't know what to believe

It must have been for a cause
our lives have so many doors
don't think about him anymore

But it was the kiss, it took me away
it's like he knew that I am fragile
he handled me like glass
and it hurts but it's what I deserve
because I should have been more careful
with the others that I handled
I should have been
I should have been
and knowing this I know
that he'll get his
but I don't want the man to suffer
oh not the way I am
because deep down I know that he's glass too
but it really doesn't matter
until it's happening to you
everybody breaks
everybody breaks
sometimes
By Gavin Degraw

The world spins so madly , love can hurt so badly-

The world can spin so madly
And love can hurt so badly
And stories can end so sadly-

You and me are so over
Even though i found a four-leaved clover
And all i can do is take cover-

I really liked you man-at -charms
Problem was you had amazing arms
And now my heart hurts like a bad perm-

I really liked you man-boy
And you treated me like a toy
Now i have no joy-

It's over now , don't you think?
Now I'm blue and not pink
Writing to you in Grey ink-

Goodbye to you and live well
I still think you're really swell
There's nothing else to tell-

The places in between

Two hearts in the faces rest
And i am utterly and completely consumed by you-
You in my system , stirring my very soul
Letting you in where only my thoughts have been
I think i inhaled you
Two minds so alike-
Our words weaving together like poetry
Our hands holding tightly to each other
Our bodies making magic
Weaned from the earth's floor
That lead me to your arms
Where i find my peace
Where i find your love
Your eyes i gaze on
In mine i am undone when you are gone
An ache so glorious
A pain so exquisite
And in my eyes only to gaze at you lovingly
Like the light of the sun
The song of the lark
The places we have been
The places in between.

love knows nothing of rank or riverbank

whenever i think of you-
which is very often
i don't remember how you look-
It's the strangest thing
I remember the feelings i felt
I have to really try and paint your face in my head
Your voice?
I hear clearly , like music in my head
Or how you made me laugh ,
The little things you say,
So therefore i love to hear you speak
I care less of any thing else
Doubt that anything else would persuade me not to love you
For it would not matter to me if you were
In the state of kings or of cobblers
All i remember is your voice
And how i love to hear you speak

You like a knife

You like a knife ,
Can cut me open
I like an orange ,
You squeezed me clean
Cut me open you did
An arrow to the heart
A blade so clean and precise
A rusty blade you did not have'
You cut me open
You cut me open you did

The Agony of being in love

When you are near
My heart beats so fast and loudly
That i can hardly speak fearing you might here it-
When you are near-
I am not myself , my mouth says things
That i can hardly remember
You have a hold on me
And it's pure agony
The sweetest pain
The worst state of affairs

And because of my pride i cannot admit
Admit my feelings they are mine alone
And i must let you go , soon
I want to stop being a fool
I want to be free again
Loving you is such agony
Having you in my system
Having you out of it - i fear is
Pain like i have never felt before
But i will be strong
and let you go . . .

I can't look you in the eye again

Im letting you go
Because-
It hurts less
And the things you used to do-
Loving to hear you speak
And now after all's been said and done
I can't look at you again
The things i thought cute
I don't anymore
After everything i learnt
After everything i am
I can't ignore the facts
That you and i
Are about as compatible as a dish of boiled potatoes and egg stew
Disgusting
You're so popular and i'm not
I'm so reserved and you are not
And now you're not the boy i used to like
Laughing at your jokes no longer
I can't look you in the eye
Because it's easier that way

I will not be thus

I will not be thus and cry
even though i want to try
trying my hardest not to pry
of your deeds that has to fry
my poor little heart-

I will not be thus and tear apart
even though i cross my heart
pushing me aside i am no tart
my dispositions beginning to part
my poor little heart

I will not be thus and lie
now alone eating humble pie
hearing my voice say bye
never to look into your eye
my poor little heart-

I will not be thus and remember
how i thought of you in december
and in your heart i am no member
then why were you so tender
my poor little heart


I will not be thus and ache
though now i am papier mache
i listen silently to my psyche
and now i am a bloody cliche
my poor little heart-

I will not be thus and mention
how you gave me sweet sensation
kisses send to one new dimension
now only a painful revelation
my poor little heart

I will not be thus and say
i loved you true to the bay
i would rather my heart slay
than to those words to you i say
my poor little heart-

I will not be thus and forget
forgetting you is harder than regret
even though you forgot we met
of course you did i am not your pet
my poor little heart-